Well, if I was born that way, I can't help it, can I? So I may as well relax and go with it. And (just to be pedantic) I'm bipolar, not autistic.
Gotta hand it to you there!
It sure sounds like you need a break, to get away from things and relax a little.
Really, all that anger will kill you a lot faster than having fun will kill me. And if you intend to be angry for the rest of your life, you're sort of dead already.
John