The Creator of the universe calls you to be with Him where He is in the paradise of Heaven. He wants to forgive your sin and give you eternal life in a body like the angels, young, beautiful, strong, and without weakness or failing.
Jesus is the way to forgiveness, and His free gift of eternal life.
Go to church. Ask the Christians there to explain this to you in a way you can understand. Before you go, say a prayer asking God to guide you rightly, to the right church, to the right people. If you are sincere in your search, He will do this for you, because He loves you and He will honor your request.
Thank you, Rick C. Hodgin